Precious Ireland,
It’s been 7-months since we met you and had to let you go.  I miss you everyday, and I want to make sure you know how much I love you, and how special you are to our family.  We talk about you all the time, and your brothers are already helping me plan the big birthday celebration we are going to have for you, when you have your 1st birthday in heaven.  Pink cupcakes.  That is what Mcguire wants to make for you.  🙂 

Lots of things are changing at our house, we have new exchange students staying here right now, I am sure you can remember hearing Ze and Naoya while you were hanging out in my belly.  Well they went home in May, and now we have two girls staying with us, that will be here for the whole school year.  They are lots quieter than the boys were, and they like to cook with me!   I love that!  They asked me about you, when they saw your picture on our wall.  “Who is that baby,” They asked?  “Oh let me tell you about her,” I said. “She is our most special gift, the most bittersweet experience of our lives.”  I showed them your pictures, and how tiny your hands and feet were, most of all I told them how much we wanted you and how much it hurt to lose you. 

Oh Ireland, sometimes I just have to lock the door and cry.  I don’t like this empty hole where you should be.  I try to be thankful for all of my blessings, and most of the time I am, but sometimes it is just so hard to put on a brave face and keep moving forward.  Sometimes I just feel like I am stuck.

You have a new baby brother coming, he is due about the time when you were born. 

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