I am afraid. I am angry. I want to give up.

 I see pregnant people everywhere….most of the time it’s ok, but today it wasn’t. Today it was hard, today I just saw these pregnant people, the ones who don’t take care of themselves, who abuse their bodies, and treat the kids they already have like they are of no value.  It makes me so angry. I just wanted to shake them and say, 
     “You don’t get it do you?  Look at these blessings in front of you, look at the life you are growing, cherish them, take care of them, LOVE them.”

I would give almost anything to still be pregnant.  I hate this so much, it is so empty and lonely, and so scary. It just hurts.  It makes me angry to see people take it for granted.

I know that times of trial are supposed to refine us and make us more like the image of Christ, but right now…I just want to step out of the furnace and catch my breath.

Lord,  I don’t want to be this fearful person, I want to be brave.  I want to be courageous, but right now I am floundering.  Help me keep going, help me praise you even when I feel like I can’t.  Help me to remember that you love me, and that you are holding me up and that in you there is hope


Please pray for me right now, I am struggling.
I just want to be brave.

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  1. (((Jessica)))) you are always in my prayers. Lord, comfort Jessica. give her words, give her thoughts, give her scripture, help her to feel you and know that she is in the shadow of your wings and you are walking with her through this incredibly hard journey she is going through. help her to remember you are right there with her, in Jesus I pray amen.


    (sometimes it is okay not to be brave and just surrender to Jesus and let him be brave for you)


  2. I'm praying for you everyday and I haven't stopped since that day I read your status on Facebook. I pray so much for you Jess and I care about you and your family. A simple little prayer I was taught when I was young you have prolly heard it.
    God is great
    God is good
    Let us thank him
    for our food.
    After I lost my son I changed the words a little.
    God is great
    God is good
    Help me to be strong
    today and everyday.

    My heart breaks for you but I know God is there and he will help along with Family and Friends. {{HUGS}} and Prayers always.

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