I am afraid. I am angry. I want to give up.
I see pregnant people everywhere….most of the time it’s ok, but today it wasn’t. Today it was hard, today I just saw these pregnant people, the ones who don’t take care of themselves, who abuse their bodies, and treat the kids they already have like they are of no value. It makes me so angry. I just wanted to shake them and say,
“You don’t get it do you? Look at these blessings in front of you, look at the life you are growing, cherish them, take care of them, LOVE them.”
I would give almost anything to still be pregnant. I hate this so much, it is so empty and lonely, and so scary. It just hurts. It makes me angry to see people take it for granted.
I know that times of trial are supposed to refine us and make us more like the image of Christ, but right now…I just want to step out of the furnace and catch my breath.
Lord, I don’t want to be this fearful person, I want to be brave. I want to be courageous, but right now I am floundering. Help me keep going, help me praise you even when I feel like I can’t. Help me to remember that you love me, and that you are holding me up and that in you there is hope
Please pray for me right now, I am struggling.
I just want to be brave.