Every Now and Then

Every now and then, I need a reminder.

Tonight as I was driving Cooper to his baseball game, he asked me a big question.  “Mom, how do you know that God is really who he says he is?  Like, ya know, how do I really know he’s the boss of the universe?”

“Well bud,” I said. “Coop, there are days I wonder the same thing.  It’s so hard sometimes to think that God created everything in this world, and all of us.  Sometimes it’s just so hard to understand.”

He looked at me for a second, and I could see his eyes filling with tears.  “Cooper,” I asked him; “What’s the matter?”

He started crying in earnest, broken; jagged sobs.  “Mom, I know that when you wonder about things like this, it means that you don’t really love God and that you don’t have him in your heart and that you’re sinning and that………..” By this point he couldn’t even continue talking.

My heart broke for my biggest boy.

I pulled over and I hugged my boy close, and I whispered in his ear.  “Cooper, your heart is so wonderful.  I am proud that I get to be your mama.  You know, that God understands that sometimes we can’t understand everything.  That is why he is God and we are just people. It’s ok to ask questions and to wonder things.”

As we were talking, I recalled several passages of scripture  that I’d read this week, while I was working through one of the sections in the Beth Moore Study of James.

…Another part sprung from the dust in God’s busy hands when He molded us into His image and ‘set eternity in the hearts of men’ (Ecclesiastes 3:11). Our eternal souls were purposely fashioned for more than this world can spare.  We long for ‘a better place–a heavenly one’ (Hebrews 11:16).  In fact, the whole concept of faith assumes something we’re hoping for and have yet not seen (Hebrews 11:1)…. {Moore, James: Mercy Triumphs, 131.}


Because of our finite minds we are unable to grasp the infinite.  That is where doubt creeps in.  God is big.  We are not.  God is all-knowing.  We are not.  God understands, he created us with a longing for eternity with him.  As I read over this verse again tonight and thought of Cooper.  God is working in him, he is already longing for eternity….for a better place.  I can’t describe what that does for the heart of a mother who only wants her boys to have an incredible relationship with Almighty God.





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