Dear Birth Mom

Dear Birth Mom,  I saw your words today, written on a news site’s comment section. I wanted to say thank-you, thank you for using your experience to shed light on the ignorance and the small-mindedness of people who simply do not know.  Thank you for your bravery.   Thank you for walking into Planned Parenthood […]

6-months

Sweet Carver Benjamin, 6-months (well if we want to get technical almost seven.) Where did those days go? A year ago I didn’t even know that you were coming, I had no idea that my life was going to change again, and that I would receive a blessing as amazing as you. You little fritter, […]

I am the Mommy

I am not sure I’m cut out for an open adoption.  I know that the open-concept is a wonderful thing, and in the long run it’s going to benefit Carver more than I’ll ever realize; but yesterday just about killed me. We met the birth parents for lunch–Carver’s tummy-mama still had one of our phones […]

Dearest Potter

Tomorrow you will be 18-months old.  Where does the time go?  30-seconds ago I was feeling your kicks inside my belly, and wondering what kind of little boy you would be? Now you are running around with stubby legs, sun-bleached hair and a smile that is full of energy. You sweet Potter are the life […]

The Beginning of Good-bye

The sweet nurse ushered us into another room, Suite 5, I will never forget that number.  I have spent a total of 9 days in our local birth center, three days for each of my sweet boys.  For all of those bliss-filled moments I never thought of those mothers who had gone before me.  A silent ultrasound, and the darkness […]